Saturday, January 31, 2009

oh man

that's it you've done it now
what you said wasn't very nice
shocked that you didn't take it back
I'm going to say this once not twice.
I'm done with feeling sorry
I'm a big girl - so piss off
I took a chance and failed
to such baveness hats must doff
And my confidence again renewed
persue my singular path of great
To become the best that ever was
It's never, no never not ever too late.

that was most definately the very first and very last time I allow myself to consider changing my course because of a whim.



the word just presented itself to me at the end of a short thread of thought (if one can call the disjointed bits and peices that run through my head a thread... but certainly thought)...

i like it. prosetry.


Friday, January 30, 2009

You give me strength

I was so worried for a moment
That the breath would not come
And the stinging of the bee
Was just my chest going numb
And the silence was as heavy
As deep water - tons per inch
But I fought the terror off
And drew the air with unseen winch

And slowly, so slowly
And carefully too
Give heart wherewithall to beat
And keep blood a healthy blue
The sun outside my window
Decides to shine as if it knew
And fought the clouds off
Just like I did
And will continue to.

To Cassie, Katie, and Amanda

Monday, January 5, 2009


What a shitty way to start out a new year.

Happy freakin' New Year

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Big Girls...

...Do cry. I wanna know who the idiot was that started the rumor that they don't. Cuz i believed him, and was pretty well off until i found out first hand that his assumption was wrong.

They do.